My Final Goodbye

[Jared]

Where to begin...

I guess I'll say how I remember the first few days of Ezud...

It started off with a dream of mine and envys (mostly envys), we were getting tired of allgaming in all ways possible. We had decided we had to try to do something to revive bug abuse, since rsg at the time was turning into a popularity contest, instead of for good sport. So we confronted one of our friends who we knew would help us - #21. He gave us a long list of domains, I had to go at the time, and I get a text from envy "Hey jared, how does ezud sound?" or something to that extent, I wasn't going to be putting alot of faith into forums as they always ended up dying fast in the beginning for me for whatever reason they did. Anyways, we started up the forum, got some close friends to the site, got them ranked, I was offered admin, turned it down (Yes the first week I was offered admin.) Soon enough though, despite everyones fears, the site ended up becoming one of todays greatest bug abuse sites, we've beaten and put out the rest, and that's not going to change.

Anyways. You all know me as jared - The scared deer - The exploiter - Envys good friend - Guy to go to for help (some of you xD). But unfortunately that time in my life has come to an end.

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It started about a month ago, but that isnt important whatsoever. Here is the thread to that, read all of the posts before you judge though.

http://ezud.com/forum/showthread.php...3302#post13302

Mezela isnt the main reason im leaving, but i do suppose you could call him the beginning of the series of unfortunate events.

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During my time at ezud, I have made many friends. Lost friends... () strengthened friendships, learned a thing or two about bugging I did not currently know. I have raised my way in the ranks. I was accused as a scammer. I met pro buggers, and took part in events that I thought only dreamable. And lastly, I feel that I fulfilled my original dream of being part of one of runescapes biggest and best forums from the start.

Now that I feel the forum is complete and support itself, I think its ok for me to take my leave of the forums no matter how much it will hurt inside.

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I will not be making any special shout outs, because those of you I knew personally, and those of you whos bond i feel has grown within these last few days, you all know who you are. And i thank you for being there for me in your time of need.

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Ok, I lied, but im only doing 4, the rest of the people on the forums know that Theres a place in my heart for them as well, but it has nothing to do with favoritism, just has to do with people who have helped me out/had an impact in my life over the last few days.

ElixiR - Helped me find alternative songs online (lol), and is a good friend.

Tyriq - Definately one of my best online friends, when i needed something, he was the first to respond, and was ready to help me in any way he could, when I was an emotional wreck for these last two days, he was one of the people I went to. Ily man

Hej - Today i spilled my guts to you, it felt GREAT, really helped me put things online and in real life into perspective. You've been a good friend ever since I met you back in 06/07 doing the poh lure, good times. Shame b44m got ban, I still feel horrible for ya man, and now i know how you feel to an extent. (same goes to you tyriq)

Lastly but not leastly:

Envy - You are the reason I did not stop going to forums after tainted-ones, once we met in ruined scape, we were inseperatable (except for camp of course :)) We bugged, we owned poh together, and along the way of other forums we met other friends such as spliff, 21, slayer, aofc, mackenzie, and many others. This is one of the reasons I am currently leaving. As many of you saw my explosion in the shoutbox yesterday, I ticked off a great admin and friend, and lost one in the process, I am still dealing with the loss, and everytime I log on, I simply can't bear it. And i dont want to take out my anger/rage on any members who do not deserve it, for that simply is not who I am or what I'm about.

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Now. Im sure many of you will say that what im saying/doing is for attention (those who greatly dislike me), but this is simply to ease the stress between my computer life and real life.

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What happend last night - Last night at approximately 11:04 pm est time, I woke up with a fever, my mom took my temperature and it was 103.2 (insert degrees sign here)

I was rushed to the emergancy room, as no doctors offices were open. When i got inside the doctor asked if anything was causing me unnecessary stress/if i was eating anything out of the oridinary. He said my blood level had decreased drastically from the last time i had saw him (the day after i got back from camp) I told him that i had had a stressful few days between the start of school, online things, and from friends. And to simply put it, he said i was putting myself in danger of making myself sick lol.

99% of you will say this is bs, but i told HEJ the story on msn, before i was going to make it public, because this morning/evening, i was in depression mode, thank god for good friends (rl and on the comp). So he can verify that story.

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The last reason I am leaving ezud is because to simply put it, my time has come. I am a washed up bug abuser, who is good for nothing anymore besides some half assed ideas. Many more people deserve the exploiter rank than me, and I've come to realize that im simply being greedy and selfish in keeping my position, and since the admins refuse to demod me, I guess that sort of pushed my reason for leaving. And I know that ezud will be much better without someone like me causing trouble for other members.

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I will still be lurking from time to time (I could never keep myself away from here permanately) But expect barely any posts coming from me, and if any, little to no activeness in the shoutbox.

I'm sorry tyriq for going back on my word, but even typing in ezud.com everytime i need to visit, gets harder and harder everytime, but we will keep in touch via msn and myspace.

My e-mail is [email protected]

Feel free to add me at any time.

I love you ezud.

`Jared

[Tyler]

I can tell there is no stopping you. Long live Jared. Cya on MSN. =(

FUCK! ='( I'll miss you so much. Remember to keep it real bro!

[BP4L]

DONT LEAVE!!

Your my sexy beast XD

[LinkMaster03]

Nuuuuuuu

nuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

Keep me added on MSN [email protected] . You are teh pwnage.

[Tyler]

Jared you will never be replaced .

Jared ily too lol, and if its your decision to leave then i respect that. I hope that when things settle down here and you feel more comfortable talking in SB and stuff that you will decide to come back and be a full fledged member. As you said we will still talk on msn and myspace because you are my bestie . Also don't worry about that promise you made its not like your completely breaking it because you said you'd still probably lurk and maybe even post a little.

[Mezala]

Can't get THAT angry about our thing....If it really made you that fucking depressed you should of took a break.

peace

[Jared]

Originally Posted by Mezala

Can't get THAT angry about our thing....If it really made you that fucking depressed you should of took a break.

peace

Incase you didnt read the whole half of a page post... it wasnt only about you, but im not here to argue, im gonna enjoy the rest of my time as a full fledged member :)

[Jared]

I decided to go inactive instead of leave, although everything stated above is true and will be taken into account for ONE DAY.

But not TWODAY :)

So until then, I will be keeping my yellow status, and will be inactive, but not quitting. I couldnt leave you guys :)

`Jared

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